For me it's through a sort of enchantment.
The feeling right before two lips touch in a kiss.
Seeing a friend when you needed them most.
Waiting to surprise someone.
The touch of someone else's hand on your skin.
The trail of ecstatic pleasure in a single fingertip.
The sort of breath stealing awe when standing on a mountain top
or suspended in an underwater world while scuba diving.
When you sing effortlessly and the notes vibrate throughout you.
Fireflies turning warm nights into magic gateways.
But also the way desire can feel all on its own.
Not desire to own, born of want but desire to feel.
Like just after a great stretch when your whole body exhales and says ahhhhh.
The joy felt in laughter.
The warmth in a hug.
Playful sarcasm.
Reunions.
Sunlight kissing the skin
(It happens. I know because those kisses leave behind freckles. I'm well kissed.)
Your bare feet on the earth.
Because truly the really good shit is so good.
Toe-curling, heart touchingly, deliciously good.
The aching, yearning, need satiated and becoming a pulsing, comforting, ecstatic calm.
Whatever you feel you get to choose.
I choose to experience as much soul in ever aspect of my life that I can.
From bluesy soul, Motwon soul, funky soul, swanky soul.
Soul with GRIT.
I like to feel to its greatest intensity.
With every atom of my body and being.
That, "I didn't just survive, I thrived" feeling.
I felt it all and I'm still here baby.
Soul is the constant running through everything in my life.
Soul is my transmutation container.
SOUNDTRACK
- Los Ageless - St. Vincent
- Melatonin - Phoria
- The Ghost In Your Smile - Jarle Skavhellen
- Elegy - Leif Vollebekk
- Beneath The Surface - Demons Of Ruby Mae
- Bud - Fenne Lily
- If U C My Enemies - Rubblebucket
- I Can't Get To Sleep - Alexander Wolfe
- Is Free (feat. Flock of Dimes) - Sylvan Esso
- No One Knows (feat. Inara George) - Olivier Libaux
- Dear Wormwood - The Oh Hellos
- Golden - Kingswood
- Guilty - Lady Wray
- Lullaby For a Soldier - Maggie Siff
- A fuoco - Ludovico Einaudi
Random Thoughts:
On a scale of 25 strengths, my top strength is appreciating beauty and excellence. My second strongest trait is Curiosity. I am a heavily curious person. I love to 'what if' to see other possibilities or snippets of possibilities. I'm constantly changing my perspective and engaging in different ways on different levels. I not only do it logically and objectively but also 'feel' it and observe myself doing all those things.
Objective dreaming. A different kind of awareness. Lucid dreaming. Emotions have effects even when sleeping. The more I can objectively observe my life from outside myself the more it occurs when I'm dreaming. So it is literally turning into a world of its own in a way as I change it's environment thoughtfully. My dreams are a place where I get to 'feel' unhindered. Absolutely no judgment.
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