I found out the hard way that I rolled up the window this morning with my hair in it. As I leaned over to change the cd I found I could only move so far. Like a marionette put up for the night. I lost a few strands of hair in that lesson.
FINDING THE LOVE
My full first name is Cynthia. It means moon goddess. I always found that very plain. Propped up like a Disney princess. I delved further. What does the moon do? It reflects light and the moon needs nothing other than itself to the move the whole world. I do truly live up to my name.
It was a quiet sort of day. There was an errand to Mobile that needed running and in truth I dread those. Mobile is always so gray, and full of traffic. I tried to wiggle out of it and then decided to just embrace the moment for what it was. The ride over filled me up with clouds and vistas. There isn't much to be said for the errand but upon returning to my side of the bay felt relaxing. James and I stopped to have a quick bite that we ate in the car and then took a little walk. He was showing me where he sits and what he does when he is stuck in Daphne in the taxi. As always I had a great time taking pictures. I did want to walk to the delta but I was not quite prepared for it so stowed the idea away for another time. It is being stowed with also visiting Burns Lake for pictures. The lake from the Friday the 13th movie. It was nice to see him relax a little and want to share parts of his day. I take those nuggets where I can.
It took up a decent portion to the free time during the day and upon returning home I just sort of disappeared in music for a little while before having to pick up Gabe. We replanted his corn in a bigger pot and soon we will plant it in moms yard. She seemed excited to offer a spot for it.
So far it's been an entire week of no disappointments. No expectations. It has been extremely calming and allows for me to see so much more in my observations. I have been able to give genuine smiles and comfort and effortless love to those that need it.
Admittedly I am writing this in the morning. I prefer to do this at night as I download things from my phone at the end of the day but I just couldn't keep my eyes open and something seemed so luring about going to bed and really just sinking in to myself and the mattress. I crashed at 9pm. I needed it. I am often up very late most nights. I am a night owl. Sometimes though I do require an early lights out.
Kelly and I were discussing those moments where you just sort of say Fuck It and get on with what lights you up. If we were charlies angles her name would be Fuck It and I would be So what. "The sky is falling, the sky is falling" So what? Fuck it. It's about the spinning record and how we choose to dance on the grooves of the record itself and the grooves of the music laid within.
The purpose of life is to learn. We are the inheritors of a portion of time, we can dissipate it on futile things or utilize it to our everlasting benefit. The seeming imperfections of Earth, the hazards and inequalities of life, the cruelty, harshness and apparent indifference to suffering and affliction are not what they seem; as it is, Earth is perfect for its purpose. It is ignorance of that purpose which makes it appear imperfect.
Tribulation and adversity, sorrow and suffering are not to be thought of as needless burdens imposed upon the difficulties inseparable from earthly life. They are things of value which open the eyes to Truth, tempering the spirit, as iron is tempered in the flame.
MY SOUNDTRACK
- Mad About You - Sting
- Window - Bonefield
- Waving Wild - Arum Rae
- Bad Girls - Jamiroquai
- Immigrant Song - Soak
- Horns - Bryce Fox
- Around Town - The Kooks
- Out For You - Colyer
- Wicked Ones - Dorothy
- Fear and Delight - The Correspondents
LAUGHS
I was told today "You're high enough on the crazy scale not to be a unicorn" which is a compliment and a slap. Regardless it made me laugh
LIKES
- warm apple cider
- bare feet
- wooden wind chimes
- opened windows
- squishing my toes in dirt
- the moment a smile begins
- mood lighting
- candles
- string lights
- sherbert
- toasting my tush next to a fire then sitting down fast
- snuggles
- laughing to the point of not being able to breathe
- having my hair brushed
- devilishness
SNAPSHOTS
Random Thoughts
connection... laughter... are roads smaller or cars bigger.... the chicken or the egg.... arms... hands... live music... movement... presence... treasures... hugs... kisses... love.. skin... sensation... troglodyte... mershon...
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