The world is what you / we make it

It’s literally like I know I’m going to be a one of a kind amazing bad ass person. For all the trials I’ve had there has always been opportunities for greatness. There is always a balance. I just haven’t decided what way.
Like the gymnastics. Within of being scouted and having the scout cover my costs because he saw something. After a few months there were plans to send me to Bela Karolyi to train for chance at the Olympics. Or that I became a Mensa member as a teen. Published poetry in high school and was strongly urged to submit to competitions. Etc. the point is there were opportunities for greatness I just didn’t choose those avenues for whatever reasons. And by greatness I don’t mean in a popular, famous way. I mean a clarity of determination, skill, and dedication to what truly moves me. It’s like the choose a path in a forest. The high path or the low path. The clear path or the overgrown path. They look different and they teach you different things but they are the same. A path. I specifically choose the word path here instead of a road. That word is too defined, conjuring up images of actual roads. Regardless of the paths linear direction. No matter what you choose it is always a ‘path’. I think we are all built for greatness. We are just all in different stages.
There is always a balance but oh how we love to linger on the side we feel is tragic. Believing so many lies about ourselves. Hurt growing and raising hurt. And we end up back at Fear, the Granddaddy of hurt and all things we consider negative. Fear has no real power. It just likes to make you believe it has. It is a manipulation of self. Just one of many perspectives. Powered by your belief in it.
That is why when I 'fear' something I do my best to not run away, or hide, or tremble but to observe it, to know it, to engage with it. By facing fear we heal ourselves.
I know in my very core that whatever paths I choose the thing that remains a constant is my determination, skill, and dedication to what moves me. And really, so much does.

What I was trying to say is because I’m working on skill and determination those opportunities will still come by. Because it’s not the opportunities that make me great. It’s me. It is my core ability to never give up. To never truly believe that I am worth less. Not to just have hope but to see it.

We allow on own fears to hold us back individually and because of it the whole is messy. And truly I believe it’s meant to be for without that very thing you would not be able to observe it’s polarity. We live in the 3rd dimension. 3. Tails. Heads. And the edge itself where they meet. The world is what we make it. On the ‘individual’ level And on the ‘As a whole’ level.

As we learn to forgive ourselves, we learn to forgive others and we all start to heal which has an affect on the 'whole'. That being said I don't think you heal the tribulations away. They remain for others so that they can find the right questions to also grow and heal. Every experience hones something in you. Like transportation. We start not being able to even roll over or hold up our own heads. We need to learn balance and strength. We need to use those to use them more efficiently. Those steps are needed before crawling and crawling is needed before we can walk. Walking before running. Once we get there then we learn to ride a bike, drive a car, etc. The point is if you put a baby or a toddler in a car they won't be able to drive it. You can't just jump ahead. You need an obstacle course. You need repetition to hone. How could we if there were no tribulations. Everything serves a purpose.

Purpose - the reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists. Synonyms - Intend. Function. Design. Principle. Scope. Prospect. Endeavor. Usance. Congruity. Doer. Maker. Originator. Movement.

It's not always a grand purpose to the average eye. They can be giant things or minuscule ones but no matter the size or look they are equal in their importance regardless if you think that importance is silly, good, bad, useless, etc. What you think about them does not alter their function. It alters YOURS.

Me? I have a new perspective on my worth. I'm stoked like a fire. I am the fuel not the flame.
I am the oxygen that allows it to burn.